Think of the last person you hugged. What would you do if they vanished completely?

hmmm. I can't remember who's the last person I hugged. Samson I think. :O

Well if he disappeared I would obviously be depressed. D: He's one of my closest friends I think. Can't imagine him gone forever. And I'll be all alone if he's gone. *awwwwwww.

This was a retarded question. X)

Think of a recent experience that has affected you greatly and how.

Alaaaaa. This is another hard one. :P

Okay well, it didn't affect me GREATLY or anything, and I dunno if it even answers the challenge but today I finally got the confidence to talk to this cute guy that I've been stalking noticing since I was like.. fourteen? O_o I know right, 5 years later then say a few random words to the guy hahaha.

So um.. the point of me saying it? well hmm. I guess I'm just happy I finally talked to the dude. :P yay me! ♥

Pick a song that projects the same mood as your day or week.

ERM.

Jesse McCartney- UP.

Cause the song is awesome and today I feel awesome ahahaha.

and plus I had no idea JM had such a nice song. O_o

What do you think it means to be in love?

OHHHHHkay this is hard.

I think I've never been in love. :O (except for shoes la ahaha). I'm going to be forever ALONE. :(

Okay fine. *serious sudah ni* Lemme think. Hmm. Being in love, I think, would mean sacrifice. Its not about what you can get from someone else, rather, its about how you can make the other person happy. Its about staying awake until 3am, or not sleeping all night if you have to, just to be on the phone with him. Its about not buying that gorgeous pair of heels (*OMG) because you wanna save the money to get him something nice instead. :O

HAHAHA what would I know about love. I've never even lasted more than a few months with a guy. :P I admire the people who can be with someone for years. To me that will only happen if the guy is truly special. :P

I think being in love doesn't necessarily have to be like, thinking about someone all day, or spending all your time with him. I think you can be far away and yet be in love. Its a matter of trust and knowing that although you COULD have someone else, you don't WANT anyone else. You want him. Simple as that. :)

*i think i didn't really do a good job with this one. :|

How do you think people see you? Be a little positive and a little negative.

Got more negative than positive la.

Negative: When I started college, there were people who thought I was, and I quote, "wild". I had no idea, but some of them (cough qiqi cough) even thought I was not a virgin. LOL. I find it funny now but back then I was horrified. People thought I was the type of girl who stays out all night in clubs, drinking or whatever. And when I asked why, they just said I "look" like "the type". Seriously? Do I look like "the type"? :p girls in class constantly looked at me weirdly just because I like wearing short shorts. (I don't blame them I guess, their religion emphasizes the need to cover up and be modest in dressing, and I understand that now) but back then I got super defensive though, and wore what I wanted anyway. :p the guys in class thought I was sengal because I constantly told them how much I missed my dogs. :p all these opinions don't bother me anymore, though. Everyone's entitled to their own opinions. ;)

Positive: people think I'm nerdy. :D because I wear nerd glasses and I'm going to do medic. XD but I take it as a positive thing because nerdy means smart, yes? ;p I've been told that I'm fun to shop with, which I personally think is a really nice thing. :D haha.

Yeeaaaah definitely more negatives. :/ okay bye.

:)

Who are you? In comparison to who you used to be. What made you change?

I used to be a lot more easygoing. I used to not be easily worried or anxious. And I used to be way too naive, and I trust people easily.

Hahaha sad to say I'm not anymore. :p I guess it's because I'm older now. Its just expected of me to start growing up maybe? The many lectures I've heard from parents and lecturers do have an impact on me, I realize I have to think constantly about my future. I worry way too much now. Example, upcoming results. Makes me queasy just thinking about it. Sighs. I don't easily trust others anymore either simply because I've been disappointed many times? i'm not bitter or anything though, I've just learnt a lot. :)

On a more positive note though, I used to be extremely dependent on others. And I'm quite happy to say I'm not anymore, hehe. Probably it was because of my 1.5 years in college. The lack of personal transport, money and etc taught me to take public transport, travel alone sometimes and be extremely frugal, hahaha. I think of it this way. If I save money on food, I get thinner AND get to spend the extra money on clothes, shoes, makeup etc. ;p and traveling on a super tight budget with Sarah was an awesome experience, living in cheap motels show how much I wanted to save money. :p

Okay so I think mostly the reason I'm different from how I used to be is college. XD

:)

Ps. Made it thru 2nd day! :D

What happened today? If it was the last day of your life, would you be satisfied with your final hours?

Soooo. Today Derek and Jeremy were in the area and picked me up to go hang out. I have seen them lately and all, but I do love hanging out with them. We did nothing in particular, just drive around KK and stopped at Wisma, Suria, and Karamunsing to get Derek's stuff.

It was fun! Given the umm, history between Jeremy and I waaaaaaaaaaaaay back (years ago, lol) I thought it might be a little awkward but I was wrong, it was totally fine and I felt comfortable. These guys are great friends, always able to make me laugh and I'm glad we're in touch even after graduation.

Oh and then we drove to school to pick up their SPM certs and look around at how much it changed. It was both nostalgic and rather funny cause we always said we would never miss MN, (and I still don't) but its true high school was fun because of the people we knew. We even met some old teachers who amazingly remembered our names. (HAHA)

So if today was the last day of my life, I can say I would be satisfied. I was happy today. I spoke to both parents and brother and cuddled the dogs. I spent time with friends. It was a good day. :)

♥