ohhh. This is my 100th blog post! :D

I've had this blog since May or June, I think. How time flies. I try to blog as often as possible, about important and unimportant stuff thats going on in my life.

Although these few days I've been so annoyed cos the Internet connection is so damn slow. =.= Patience has never been a trait of mine.

My family have officially landed safely on Sabah ground. Like, this morning. (: KotaKinabaluohhowimissyou. And how I miss my doggies. :(

Oh, and I'm going to try and post up photos D:

Its taking so long to upload them. :( I GIVE UP. :(

xoxo karen

I am majorly annoyed right now.

:P

I wanna blog but uploading pictures is taking too long, so I'll have to wait til I get back to KTT, THEN I'll upload them all.

Ah well. Might as well shop now, then. ;D

xoxo karen

At least I still have time to blog everyday. (:

Today was such a long day.. I finally got to ride on a beca! :D except I was terrified I'd get hit by a car LOL..

Got whacked by a random man today cos I stood in the middle of nowhere and stared off into space. :P (I didnt know where to go! Sudden brain freeze XD) yeah. People here are not very.. umm.. nice :P haha.

I have to wake up early tomorrow! A day trip to Mekong River.. I think it should be interesting :D I'm kinda loving Vietnam so far.. Although its overcrowded and so dusty, I swear I can feel the pollution seeping into my lungs :P But still.

I shall post ALL MY PHOTOS when I'm back in KL! :)

xoxo karen

OOOOOOhmigod it has been such a long day.

And I can't even type a long post as I'm rushing to go out. To. A. water puppet show. :D By the way, (What's a water puppet?) O_o its supposed to be a tourist attraction, so, I dunno. I'll be brave and try it out. (:

Yeah. OH GOSH vietnamese food is so freaking delicious and SO EXTREMELY CHEAP! I swear I've died and gone to food heaven. (: (: Am totally gonna gain another few kilos by the time I go back to the jungle, aka KTT :P

And I've taken like a ton of pictures of everything that moves. And heck, even everything that doesn't move. :P HAHA! I got stopped by a random stranger today, who, in her broken English, complimented me on my bling bling glasses. ;D

ookay. Am going to eat now. AGAIN. ;D

xoxo karen

A quick post..

I'M IN VIETNAM!!!

And to Felicia, Sarah and Samson, the reason I'm not texting is cos it costs a FREAKING RM2 FOR ONE SINGLE SMS!!

And for Tatianna, I'm not texting cos I dunno which number ur using :P

Shall update more when I'm back in KL! :)

xoxo karen

Holidays begin TODAY! (:

I'm going to enjoy myself, I don't care if "I should study", I wanna enjoy my holidays regardless. :P

Lucky people who get to go home. (Pretty much all my Sabahan friends are heading back either today or tomorrow.)

:) wave at Mount K. for me ;D hehe.

xoxo karen

ONE MORE PAPER TOMORROW!

Sarah and I were so bored last night, we made lists.

Wanna see?? :D I know you do. ;D

The "sucks" list was written by Sarah and the "rocks" list was written by ME! :)

For you sad people who can't actually SEE cos my camera is crappy,

15 Reasons Why KTT Sucks.

1. There are bugs all over the house.

2. There are ants on the walls. (Like seriously. EVERYWHERE.)

3. We don't have a useable Shieldtox.

4. Absence of swivel chair!!

5. No civilisation within 5 metres of KTT.

6. Patrick is graduating. :( (HE'S SO HANDSOME. :()

7. NO HOT GUYS!

8. We live on the third floor.

9. The classroom smells like SHIT!

10. My hair smells like mamak stall everytime I go there.

11. The library smells like TOILET occasionally.

12. The CLEO, FEMALE and SEVENTEEN are outdated.

13. I DON'T HAVE A LOVE LIFE! (SAD LITTLE PEOPLE LIKE ME)

14. No sofa in the house.

15. There is no air con or water heater provided!!

15 Reasons Why KTT ROCKS! (trust me, this was WAY harder to write. Miracle we could think of 15.) LOL.

1. Grandma Girl moved out of the house. :D

2. I can hog the fan.

3. I can wear nice heels to class!

4. I have my own little box! (All of us do :D)

5. Presence of HOT, SEXY, AMAZING MR ZAINI!! (LOL!)

6. Patrick goes to KTT! (or you know, used to. :P)

7. We have a whiteboard to conteng.

8. Monochrome, Monobrow and Pondan are graduating!!!!! :D (hahahaha WHAT FREAKS)

9. The "Aneh" gives us discount everytime we go eat at mamak.

10. I have coloured pens! :D

11. We go pasar malam and Giant EVERY SINGLE PATHETIC WEEK.

12. Get to sleep in VERY VERY VERY VERY late on Saturday and Sunday. :D

13. We used to have a few (kinda) handsome seniors. :)

14. Sarah has a room all to herself. (TAMAK!)

15. I have an electric toothbrush! :DDD (AND ITS PINK!!!)

We are very very bored people. :P

xoxo karen

I finally finished reading Jane Eyre! (Charlotte Bronte)

I've been wanting to read it since I watched Definitely Maybe (best chick flick since forever :D) and I finally managed to find a copy of it last month I think, and I've been reading it faithfully every day, then I stopped for like 3 weeks, and I finally finished the last chapter last weekend. :D

It's a great book. (:

A bit hard to understand, I found myself re-reading sentences over and over again. :D But it was so rewarding in the end.

I like classics alot. I mean I also like chick lit and stuff, but classics are nice. I've read Wuthering Heights, (Emily Bronte) To Kill a Mockingbird (Harper Lee), 1984 (George Orwell) Animal Farm (George Orwell)... <> and others I kinda don't even remember. I'm a nerd and I read a lot.

HEHE. (:

Got my class photo just yesterday. Wanna upload it here, but unfortunately I got no soft copy. I did try taking a picture of the picture with my camera. :D Except it does look pretty fugly. P/S I hardly dare say it but ILOOKOKAYINTHEPICTURE!

:D

xoxo karen *<3*

Shoes.

MY OBSESSION.

I remember I started wearing heels at age 15.

I LOVE THEM! :D Although I did totter a bit unsteadily and had to hold my dad's arm to prevent myself from falling. XD

Now I can proudly say, I am able to walk around in 4 inch heels WITHOUT holding on to anyone and WITHOUT falling . >.<

I mean, whats not to love about heels? Okay, so a pair of jeans might make your butt look too big. A top that doesn't quite fit right night make your boobs look awkward. BUT SHOES. WILL. NEVER. DISAPPOINT.

:D (pretty shoes, of course.)

I really adore shoes. I have like quite a few pairs of heels at home but sadly because I came to KTT I obviously can't bring them all.

Its all good though. Just gives me the chance to buy MORE when I'm here ;D

But I don't love all shoes. Oh no. A particular example of shoes I absolutely ABHOR is this:

AAAAARGH!!

I mean, WHAT IS THIS?!

Thats not a SHOE! :P

I hate pointy toe heels. WITH A BARELY VISIBLE HEEL.

I have been known to say, if you wanna wear heels, then WEAR HEELS. These are like.. fake heels. :P THEY'RE TOO LOW! Not only that. They are UGLY. :(

Sorry to anyone who happen to read this and actually LIKE these heels. Its just in my opinion THAT THEY ARE UGLY. :P

Now in contrast,

Now, THIS, I can live with. (:

Cheers. ;D

xoxo karen

NATASHA, READ THIS!! :)

I haven't blogged in what seems like ages.

Studystudystudy.

And like seriously being in KTT totally kills my creativity. :P

I feel so tired. Cos all I seem to be able to do is STUDY. :P And I know I should. (I WANNA DO AT LEAST DECENTLY IN MY EXAM NEXT WEEK)

Okay well. Sarah is going back to Sabah in 7 FREAKING DAYS!!! :)

She's so lucky. (: *jealous* hehe.

I miss my hometown. (: BUT OMG FOR THE FIRST TIME, 2 DAYS AGO, I SAW STARS IN KTT!!!!!!!

Oh goodness. It was Mark's birthday. I was covered in cake. And walking upstairs to clean myself up. And I happened to look up at the sky. And by some major miracle, I saw stars. Are you reading this, Nat? I SAW STARS!!! Like WHOA. I stared at them til my neck hurted. ;( hehe.

Maybe it was a sign from God telling me to stop missing home so much (: hehe.

xoxo karen

I'm seeing my parents on the 20th!!!

*squeals and dances around excitedly* :D

I'm so excited. (: I haven't seen them in 2 months, like literally. :D As in, didn't webcam even. I wonder if they'll notice any changes in me. (Physical, mental, etc :D) I hope I got smarter LOL!

ICAN'TWAITICAN'TWAITICAN'TWAIT!!

I miss them sooooooooooooooo much.

xoxo karen

OMG what a mess.

This is so depressing. T.T

Helikessomeoneelse!

HAIH. I know. Its something I have totally no control over, unfortunately. And while the knowledge of it stung me yesterday, today is a new day and I actually feel okay. Like really. Not just something I'm saying. its really true.

My true friends are those who are still here for me, who still make me laugh like hell, when in fact my heart feels like its breaking. When it feels like evrything's hanging by a thread, and yet you're there looking out for me, you're my friend. You guys make me stronger.

The truth is I doubt I'm ready to be in a relationship. I've been single for awhile now, and although I do like it, the freedom is there, sometimes its true, it can get depressing. Sarah and I are always joking that apartment 4-3-A1 (mine, btw :D) is the most depressing as all of us (me, Sarah, and Waffle) have NO love lives whatsoever. :D

It's SOMETIMES depressing. Because having someone special there in your life, being in love with someone is a really nice feeling. (: And I really haven't felt it in awhile. I think, being the demanding sort of person I am, it takes a certain special kind of guy to understand and be able to keep up with me. When I'm being unreasonable. When I'm jealous. When I cry. When my makeup's a mess.

I've been in more relationships than I care to count. None of which I've really really been serious about, unfortunately. I don't know. My perspective on love changes as I grow and mature. While I USED to think I love them, now I just think "WhAT the hell was I thinking?!"

I haven't found him yet.

And meanwhile, I'm not exactly holding my breath waiting for him. The right guy will some along eventually, I'm sure of it. Love comes when you least expect it. And no matter what, I have my roomie Waffle and housemate Sarah who NEVER EVER fail to make me laugh til I cry. (: And plus, Qiqi who's probably my closest guy friend, whom I tell everything to. My family in Sabah who love me so much and miss me as mich as I miss them.

There's someone out there for everyone. <3

And I just want to say. I'M SORRY to anyone reading this, whom I've hurt. *HINTHINT* :P I'm sorry I didn't handle it better. Maybe I really should have been more sensitive. I'm sorry. Don't stay mad at me forever, yeah.

xoxo karen

ARGH!

Oh, the frustration! :P

Not that I can say anything about it in here.... :P

AIH. How did everything turn out to be SUCH a mess? :'(

Never mind. It could have been worse. I could have been in HER position. O_o

OHMIGOSHHHHHH. :P

xoxo karen

We planned it all out.

Kidnap her.

Down the stairs in the darkness.

Surprise! :) (cake and everything even :D)

But of course nothing went according to plan.. :P haha.

Hope you enjoyed it though. (: HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICHELLE! Again. :D

badminton later. *arm suddenly hurts* :P

Can't wait! :)

xoxoxoxoxoxo karen :)

MY ARM HURTS. :'(

When I hold it out and compare with my other arm, I swear the right one is slightly swollen. :P

Oh and its cause I played badminton with Gavin yesterday. Even though it was raining. :D

(I haven't had that much fun in a while. (: It was great. (: And I can't remember the last time I played under the rain. Sure makes me feel homesick. :S)

AND. I hardly dare to say it, butIthinkImightbegettingbetteratbadminton. HEHE!

:D BIG thank you to Gavin for being patient enough to put up with me. XDXDXD You must have had SUCH A KICK watching me look retarded attempting to play. :D bwahahaha,

Anyways.

I've been so down lately. Quieter. Studying more. Partly stressed cos exams are sooooo near and partly tired. Just tired. I think I've really really lost touch with everyone back home. The people I thought I knew so well, turns out I don't really know them very well at all.

Question: WHY do I have to deal with all the drama that isn't even my own? P.S. I'm the one away from home. I'm the one having to adjust. And as if I don't have enough of my own problems, I have to listen to all THAT. URGH.

Haih. That outburst had been building up for days. :P

I'll only be back in Sabah in Feb next year.

THAT'S 6monthsawayfromhome! D:

I bet things will be SO different when I get back. Awkward. :P But I'm only gonna worry about that when the time comes. :)

Right now I just want to study, and at the same time enjoy my time with my friends here. (:

Oh. And happy birthday Michelle. (: In advance. But know you wouldn't read this anyways. :D

xoxo karen

P.S. I feel like I'm losing my imagination when it comes to blogging. Nothing I blog about seems interesting nowadays. :(

OH GOSH I HAVE TO STOP BEING SO DEPRESSED. :(

2 weeks to exam 2 weeks to exam 2 weeks to exam. :(

And HOW I WISH IT WASN'T RAINING RIGHT NOW. Rain reminds me of Brownie. And Walnut. Oh gosh, its funny. Whenever it rains Brownie would run around like a crazed psycho because she's so happy.. And she would look up at the sky to see where the water's coming from. :D INSANELY cute. :) And of course, there's Walnut who's TERRIFIED OF THE RAIN. So he hides somewhere in the back area of my house. :D

This is my beautiful, spoilt, amazing, greedy, intelligent best friend Brownie. (: I adopted her when I was 14, and I've loved her ever since. MISS HER SO MUCH. She's the main reason I get so homesick. :(

Walnut! Whom I adopted a year after Brownie. I love his name.. WALNUT. :D haha. This is when he was a puppy. Now he ain't cute no more. :D

I didn't wanna specially blog about my dogs. *I MISS MY DOGS!* :D (the guys in class are evil and pick on me everytime I say this.)

But.

What I'm feeling right now is so complicated and I can't understand it.

*can't put it in here either cos its too personal and I don't want the whole world to bully me about it* :D haha.

I think it wouldn't work out anyway. And then there's the little voice in my head whispering, "You never know.."

ARGH. Stupid voice. =.="

I DON'T WANT TO!! IT WON'T WORK OUT! *besides I doubt he likes me back :P*

xoxo karen