Yeap I'm finally home as in KTT, (I can't believe I said home, LOL) so I decided to post up my pictures from this past weekend. :P

Friday night:

Waited for Felicia to buy a ball for Edson (don't ask) so Sasa and I cam-whored while waiting. ;)

HAHA Sasa made me pose! I dunno how to! :P LOL.

Blurry, my stupid camera. :( Dunno why. :(

Saturday:

I spent (no, wait, Sasa spent all morning dying my hair. (: ) Thanks honey! No more fugly roots, woots. :D

Her cake with candles, pretty ehy? (:

HEHE she's finally wearing a skirt. (: I am gonna be her slave for two weeks you know. Just cause she agree to wear the skirt. *pout*

This is one of her presents. AWESOMELY adorable. (: I wish I had friends who would get bake for me. *wink* :D

Oh yes, I conuldn't resist! I found this in Felicia's room, I WAS SO FREAKING EXCITED YOU KNOW! DKNY lip gloss man! It smelt nice. :3

HEHE. (:



Jess and I, she's lovely and awesome and really really nice. (:

Sarah and I. See? My hair is so red slash brown slash I dunno what color. :P

In Felicia's room, in our dresses. Party theme was beachwear okay.. :P

AND AFTER THE PARTY,

This is the present we got for Felicia. (using xmas wrapper cos we don't like to waste. :D)

Her unwrapping. BWAHAHAHA!

And then..





This is it. :P After a million layers of newspapers. :D hahaha.

I'd love to blog more but damn tired leh, some more got class tomorrow morning. :P AND I JUST WANNA SAY, SOMETHING MADE ME VERY FREAKING HAPPY JUST NOW, OMG OMG OMG. :D

I'll say this another time. (:

xoxo karen

Just a quick post..

Felicia turns 19 today! Ehem *tua* ehem. :D hee. Just kidding. Or, you know, not. :D

Got home at 1 something this morning, had an awesome time out with a few new friends. *cough* there was a cute guy *cough* :D I've decided I kinda like the atmosphere of Library although it disgusted me to see this one guy WHO CAN'T DANCE, try to. :P HAHAAA jakun. :P

SUCH a big difference from the bunch of assholes we watched Legion with the other night. =.="

Another reason got la, why I'm in such a great mood. ;) But I ain't gonna say! Hehe. (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my beloved roommate! (: We've come a long way since the infamous "Walrus" and "Slut" insults. HAHAA I don't even mind already, lol, but kinda fun to use it against you once in awhile. ;) hehe.

xoxo karen

16 16 16 :DDD

Heheeeee!

Look what's written on my apartment's whiteboard. :D

YAY YAY!

Exam over today, mechanics was kinda easy and pure maths was total shit.

:P

OH! Leaving the jungle tommorow, woots. Spend the weekend at Felicia's, its her birthday, (HAHAHA she's in for a shock and I'll blog about why, after she gets the shock. Yep.)

I miss Fluffy! :D Apparently my mum said he can walk again, suddenly, OMG, miraculous recovery considering the fact that he still only has three legs. (Legs don't regrow. Miracle also won't be until so miraculous. :D HAHA)

Right. Crapping already. :P Excited bah.

xoxo karen

Have you ever had that feeling where you've tried sooooooo hard at something but JUST CAN'T SEEM TO GET IT?

Oh, please. I'm not talking about a guy.

Its just I had this feeling yesterday after I sat for my retarded Physics paper.

I swear to you, I studied like so hard for it, and then the paper was total and complete bullshit! Like seriously I couldn't do a thing, and we only had an hour and thats barely enough time to THINK yet alone formulate a halfway decent answer to put on to my paper.

*sob* yesterday was NOT a good day for me.

And to top it all of, I was trying to sleep and forget the whole nightmare and my mum called! I haven't really spoken to her in awhile, but I was all groggy and depressed, you know, and it showed through very obviously in my voice, I suppose. And I muttered some half-intelligent answers (HAHA YEAH RIGHT, mostly "umm"s and "ah"s.) and then she gave up and left me alone.

And then I think she must've been worried about me cos I think it was 10 minutes later when my daddy called. Tagteam, those two. :P Anyway. He was calling because apparently my mum said I sounded depressed. Which I was. Obviously. Effing Physics paper.

And here's my dad, reassuring me that its okay, that even if I didn't do that well, there's always a next time and that I'll just have to do better next time. AND. Get this. He says he believes that I can do it. That he's not worried, he knows I can do it.

And hearing the concern and the care in his voice I just started to cry.

Really. I cried.

I don't even believe in myself but yet he does.

What you should know is, my family and I don't say nice things to each other. Like I don't remember the last time I told my mum or dad I love them. Or the last time I hugged them. Or whatever. :P

I don't want to disappoint him! Or my mum! Because I feel so bad. I feel like a total and complete failure. :P I study and yet my grades are shit.

And you might be wondering whats the point of this blog post.

This post marks a promise to myself, that I shall work harder from now on. If not for myself, then at least for my parents. For the people who want me to succeed. Because sometimes its not always about what I want, its about them too.

I PROMISE. I really will work harder. No more playing around, no more time wasting, I'm so determined this time I'm scaring myself. HAHA.

xoxo karen

365 days :P

I acknowledge this is probably something kinda stupid to blog about. Haha. I just wanted to remember it.. If by the end of me typing this post, it sounds dumb, then I'm probably never gonna publish it for the world to see, lol.

Today. Marks me being single for a whole year. OMG, haha.. a whole year of freedom and a whole year of me learning to love myself, to be by myself and enjoy flirting and not feeling guilty for it. *heh*.

I guess I've never really been serious about this kind of thing. Relationships in general. How can I? I don't believe that anything lasts forever, as in, as beautiful and wonderful something may be for a moment, in a breath it can be ripped away from you, so I know I should never take it too seriously unless I want to get hurt and have my heart broken to pieces.

When I say I like someone, I usually don't really mean it. Not completely. I set up barriers because I never want anyone to come too close. Because it will hurt when he goes. It will.

So anyway. Single for a whole year, because I have not found somebody whom I can truly and sincerely say, I really like. I won't even say love because thats too deep for me. Sure there have been false alarms *cough* as in people who have come close, but then I never did end up with anyone. I was just talking to Sarah about this same topic the other day, haha.

I've watched as my friends get together, break up, get together again, break up again, and it seems so exhausting, putting myself through that is just unthinkable.

I'll probably remain single for awhile. I choose to. Don't be surprised if a year from now, I publish another blog entry marking my 2nd year of singledom. :P

Just a couple of days ago Gebby was talking about love and really I didn't expect it, but what she said did stick with me. She was saying that God made somebody for everybody. And it really resonated with me in a sense, I really believe that exact same thing. I OBVIOUSLY have not found him yet but really I'm not in a rush. He's out there somewhere! God know where, but still. :P

Right now I can say there's nobody whom I really feel anything for. Its just that I can never really be sure whether its real or not.

I know what I'm worth. And I know I deserve better. No more hoping and praying for something that I'll never get because that just means disappointing myself. (PS not referring to anything, by the way. Just saying. :P)

Okay I'm gonna stop typing, as I'm in serious danger of spilling my heart out and making everybody puke at the intensity of it all. :P

xoxo karen

I am SO indian ;D

Guess what day it is today!

Ponggal. :P haha yeah I didn't know what it was at first, either. I knew the ICS people in KTT were gonna organise some stuff, but still I figured I wouldn't go, I'd go play badminton instead. :D

And then like 2 hours before the thing, Sean decided to pester me to go.

"But I don't have anything to wear!" *high pitched squeal from me*

"Don't worry I'll find you something to wear. Can borrow from one of the Indian girls mah. Either sari or punjabi suit." Oh she sounds so confident despite my many feeble attempts at telling her I can't find a sari that fits me.. (yeah for skinny people only bah..)

And then I found that Narmatha's sari fits me! Thanks Narmatha, it's so gorgeous, I love it *muaks muaks* :D Yeah it was tight, but then everyone's was, even Gebby's and Sean's so I guess its perfectly okay. :D hahahaa.

For those who are not familiar with wearing sari, let me tell you its damn difficult to wear! Consists of a tiny tight little top, that doesn't cover the stomach, and then a skirt, and then a huge long piece of cloth wrapped around the whole body.

And get this, if that piece of cloth unravels then everything falls apart and you'll be left wearing nothing but that tiny top and the skirt underneath which is probably pretty much considered as underwear. :D

Still, the overall effect is gorgeous! Although its tricky to wear on your own (Gebby helped me with mine cos it was my first time wearing) and very hard to walk. I was wearing my wedges and I swear I nearly tripped and fell to my death. :D

I've decided I love wearing sari! Its so ethnic! And beautiful too-the one I borrowed, anyway. And most Indian girls wearing their saris all looked so so amazing!

I would have taken a hell lot of pictures but sadly my camera battery was dying LOL so I didn't, but I did take a few! :)

Kolam, am I right? :P coloured rice-PRETTY.:)

Some of the dancers- they were so pretty OMG :P

Yeah I acknowledge that my hair's a mess (it was really really hot today okayy) and I am badly in need of re-dying my hair. I'm gonna do it in around 2 weeks like that.. ;D

Nader, her punjabi suit was nice, black and gold, kinda reminds me of Kadazan outfit *wink*

With a bunch of my friends, Pavitra's sari is so bright, hehee.

Gebby the lovely girl who helped me wear the sari :D

Mark, Gebby and me

With bestie Qiqi ;D

Sean and I at her house, before we went downstairs HAHA I was lauging at something I guess.

I like this one, we all look so ethnic and none of us are even Indian :D

Yeah. I have more pictures but I am getting kinda malas to upload already, so these will have to do for now. :P hee.

xoxo karen

I wanna go homeeeeeeee :P

Oooooh going back on the 13th. Feb. Ages away.

:D Yeah yeah, get through exams first but still. STILL. :)

I just can't wait, wheeeeeeee. *dances around excitedly*

What is it about my beloved KK that makes me go so crazy?? And excited. And retarded, hahaha. Probably the fact that I haven't been back for the past 6 months. WTF MAN, THATS LIKE HALF A FREAKING YEAR! :P

Thats half a year without seeing the ocean near my house and how gorgeous it looks every sunset. (serious, I haven't been anywhere near a beach around here :P)

Half a year without taking my dogs out and playing under the rain.

Half a year without going to church in Sabah!

And half a year without sleeping in my own bed. ARGH!

I can't wait to go back and give my two dogs a hug.

I can't wait to drive my car!

I can't wait to go out and watch movies all day (admittedly I do that here in KL, but still)

I just can't wait to see everybody. (:

Okay I'm hungry, its 2.30 pm and I haven't eaten anything all day. Thats enough hyper-ness for now.

xoxo karen

DONE.

I've stopped. Over. Don't even really want to talk about it except to someone whom I KNOW won't judge me ie Sarah and even then I cried while talking about it.

xoxo karen

Hey You. Yes you.

Hey, long time no update. :)

Pic pic. (drawn on the whiteboard in my apartment. :D) hahaha

Yeah but retarded pics aside, I wanna post this for somebody.

Yeah I know you must be heartbroken right now. Yeah its hard to deal with loving somebody who doesn't seem to give a crap. No offense. But yeah. Hey. I hate to see you like this. Not because it annoys me, but because it hurts me too. I can't help but feel sad for you.

Because normally our roles are reversed yeah? I'm the broken dysfunctional emo one who lies in bed and cries when I'm sad. (yeah that was a secret, but see, I'm revealing it especially for YOU, HAHA :P) And you're my rock, the one who will text me with some message thats so touching and sweet I end up crying even more (ANOTHER SECRET REVEALED FOR YOU! XD) but thats not the point.

The point is you're always there for me when I need you and I hope I can be here for you too.

I can't handle emo people. Because I am one myself. I mean seriously. I don't know what to say to make you feel better, I don't know if I can say I understand how you feel, cos maybe I don't.

All I can do is sit aside and watch you do what you need to do to forget her. Its hard, I know it is. You can't control who you like and I know exactly what I'm talking about here. :P But still. I hope you'll be okay, thats all.

I don't know what else I can do, all I can say is I just hope you're okay.

AND I hope you're reading this. HEH.

I love you! Take care, and know I'm here to listen if you need me. (:

xoxo (my signature yeah?) :D karen

Yet another prayer-post. :3

Dear Jesus,

I thank You for allowing me to safely go to church this weekend. I know my mum was worried because of all the craziness here but I thank You that I got the chance to go and worship.

The peace I feel when I'm in church, really astounds me. Every single worry and fear melts away as I am in Your presence, in Your church.

Despite the craziness and pure insanity of what is happening, I pray Lord that You will continue to shower Your peace and graces upon all Your children here on Earth.

I have faith that all this will pass, and while many fear for their safety and don't really want to go to church at the moment, I believe at this time, Lord is when we need to gather together in faith in Your name and pray for safety and deliverance.

I pray for the safety of my family in Sabah, they are so far away and while they worry about me I can't help but worry about them just as much, if not more.

Lord let Your glory shine upon us and get us through this time.

Amen.

Love karen

Dear Jesus,

I haven't been praying as much as I should have. But I just wanna thank You for always being there, always looking after me, showering me with Your abundant blessings and graces.

I feel SO lucky that I know You, that I'm a believer.

I pray that You will continue to show Your presence in my life and guide me to the right path.

I LOVE YOU, thank You for EVERYTHING.

Amen. (:


xoxo karen

(P/S Random I know, but straight from my heart.<3>

Guess who I webcam-ed with yesterday??

*As I told anyone who would listen* :D

Yeah so the webcam sucks and the quality of the pic OBVIOUSLY sucks.

But I don't care! I miss my baby soooooooooo much. *kiss* :D

xoxo karen

This is LONG overdue.. Picture upload time! :D

Yeah my lovely classmate Nader. (:

Chris, Nana, Sasa and me. (:

Sasa and me.

The whole group of catholic girls :D bwahaha.

Because X'mas is all about forgiving, forgetting the past and moving on. (: *referring to my ex-housemate Iyvonne.* (No, I don't call her Grandma Girl anymore, see how I've matured?? :D)

Shanabelle and me! My face, yeah, chubby. *I NEVER PHOTOSHOP ANY OF MY PICTURES HAHA*

This was the outfit I wore when I mentioned the a**holes that yelled at me. IS IT OUTFIT IN ANY WAY REVEALING AT ALL?

Didn't think so. (:

xoxo karen