My new, non-plastic best friend. :)

My newest best friend. Isn't she adorable?? :DD






i LURVE her!! :)) muaks muaks muaks. :)) hehe. DAMN. im leaving soon. and leaving this adorable lil puppy behind. :(( *sniff*


xoxo karen

Friendship Sweaters are SO in. :D

I HAD A SHOPPING SPREE!! :D hehe. oh, the joys of owning a credit card. :))) hehe. who says money can't buy happiness? ;) i'm certainly very perky right now. hehe. Kim and i went to MNG and bought the EXACT SAME black classic sweater. :)) it was a very nice sweater. LOL. i love it alot alot. samson calls it our friendship sweater! :)) and then we went to Tropicana Life and saw the prettiest necklaces so we bought one each. again, EXACTLY THE SAME. except hers was gold and mine's silver. :)) haha. it looks roxy, but its not. :P its our friendship necklace!! :D

I AM SO DEPRESSED!!! I don't wanna leave! I love my friends here. :(( im excited to start studying there and all, but i love my friends here. :( I don't wanna leave kim. i HATE to leave samson. and i'll miss jovi cos he makes me laugh. :(( haha. everyone i care about it HERE and i'll be THERE. :( and i HATE PACKING. i sulk everytime my mum tries to get me to pack. :P i'm like a little kid all over again. :(( oh my gosh. next thursday man.. :((

xoxo karen

Bloodsuckers! XD

Wheeeee!! :) Watched Blood: The Last Vampire today with samson. HORRIBLE!! :P anyone who hasn't watched this, please don't. It was awful. Save your movie ticket money and get a ticket to watch Transformers instead. :D HAHA. Kim, if you're reading this i bet you're saying "YESSSSS!!!!" and jumping up and down joyfully. :D HAHA. but on a brighter note, i did enjoy spending time with samson. :) i wonder if you're reading this. yes, yes, i really enjoy ur company. :)) and im soooooo gonna miss you when i leave. OMG. by this time next week i'll be in KL. :( i know im so happy i got this chance to leave, and to start over and all, but now that its actually happening i feel kinda sad knowing what i'm leaving behind.. :((

xoxo karen

If Today Was your last day

I find myself totally addicted to this song by Nickelback.
If Today was your last day..
its not really so much of the tune or anything,
its more of the lyrics that i'm in love with.. :)
and i think its something to live by.. :)
My favourite lines are the coloured ones.. :) LOL. 


My best friend gave me the best advice
He said each day's a gift and not a given right
Leave no stone unturned, leave your fears behind
And try to take the path less traveled by
That first step you take is the longest stride

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
If today was your last day

Against the grain should be a way of life
What's worth the prize is always worth the fight
Every second counts 'cause there's no second try
So live like you'll never live it twice
Don't take the free ride in your own life

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

If today was your last day
Would you make your mark by mending a broken heart?
You know it's never too late to shoot for the stars
Regardless of who you are
So do whatever it takes
'Cause you can't rewind a moment in this life
Let nothin' stand in your way
Cause the hands of time are never on your side

If today was your last day
And tomorrow was too late
Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

Would you live each moment like your last?
Leave old pictures in the past
Donate every dime you have?
Would you call old friends you never see?
Reminisce of memories
Would you forgive your enemies?
Would you find that one you're dreamin' of?
Swear up and down to God above
That you finally fall in love
If today was your last day

What the hell. face it, i pretty much love all the lyrics. :)
its like so inspiring.. :)

xoxo karen

At 5.00 am, retarded muffins. :P

*yawn*. It's way too early to be awake. :( and guess what i'm doing awake so early. I'm making muffins! :P NO, wait. MUTATED muffins. :P haha. Kimberley had the most brilliant idea, to put all sorts of stuff into our muffins.. so i added in Smarties and chocolate. :D lol. Being the chocoholic, i'm not complaining. Its the lazy side of me thats screaming in my head, asking me what i'm doing awake so early. :P LOL. looks good eh? :DD retarded muffin. :D






Anyways, i watched Transformers yesterday. OMG, i'm turning into a geek. O_o'. The worst part is, i hate to admit it, but.. it was actually really really good. :) haha. samson was right. :P oh, and i HATE TO ADMIT THIS, but.... kim was right. :D hahaha. The movie was a little long, that was the only downside. I found myself having to lean on samson's giant shoulders and try hard not to fall asleep. :D lol.
who would have EVER guessed that i'd watch Transformers and actually enjoy it?.. :D haha.


xoxo karen

*Tag, tag*

Ooh, just got tagged. :D LOL. more pictures.. these are when i was performing onstage. :) We sang, no, screamed "Almost" by Bowling For Soup.. If you look closely you'll see im not even wearing shoes cos i was SO TIRED running around. :S (this was towards the end of the night) :P

I.S. Night!

Its over! :) and i cant believe i'm saying this, but i actually really had fun. :) LOL. Granted, i WAS running around like a crazy person helping out Queenie and all, but still. :) haha.. do you have ANY IDEA how HARD it is to run in heels?? i didn't either. But now i know only too well. :D haha. We had to run in and out of the ballroom to look for the Best Dressed nominees and get them to come outside and pose for more pictures. And we had 5 minutes or so to run in, search for them, take the pictures, and put everything into Powerpoint slides. Queenie and i were pretty much ready to cry with frustration. :S lolx.

But it wasn't all work, really. I did get to sit down for like 10 minutes. :D haha. and i did get to eat ONE bowl of rice. :D lolx. i'm exaggerating. But overall, it was a nice night. There were girls who came in AMAZING dresses. and the place was nice as well.. it would have been a perfect night if i was a graduating senior. :) I did my performance and thankfully i didn't screw up, and in fact i actually had fun. :) lol. so many smileys in this blog entry. :D haha.

and not to mention, i actually got to hang out with him for a bit. :D hahaha. i still can't believe how incredibly sweet he was. He must have seen me running around like crazy and not having a moment to myself, which was why he actually asked me if i had eaten and if there was anything he could do to help me. And so i got him to help me to count votes and stuff. :) but it was just so sweet and thoughtful because he was like with all his friends and so i really didn't expect that he would even notice me, let alone offer to help me out. Which brings about the thought... wouldn't he make an awesome boyfriend? :) any girl would actually be pretty lucky to have him. :P haha.

I've often been asked the question, what is the sweetest thing a guy has ever done for you? and now i think i can actually answer that question. :) he's not my boyfriend though, that's the most ironic part. But what he did totally made my night. :)

xoxo karen

P.S. some pics i did manage to take. Not many. But i do have some in other friends' cameras that im waiting for on facebook. :D

Pre-Prom.. :P

i had a typical saturday with nothing exactly interesting to type, but i'm just typing cos i feel like it. :P hmm.. what did i do today.. lazed, slept, ate.. went jamming.. went to church.. umm.. DID NOT go shopping unfortunately. :( i believe in retail therapy and the comforts it brings. :D lolx.

Its IS night tommorow! I tried on my dress just now, finally, and finally cut off the price tags. :D lol. Thank God it still looks the same. i didnt get fatter or anything. ahem. O_o" lol. and i think i might just enjoy tommorow night. :D lolx. that is, if i remember everything. I seem to have a knack for forgetting important things. Ticket, phone, purse. etc etc. oh, and i almost forgot. camera! see what i mean... O_o" lols..

fingers crossed that tommorow night goes well. :D

xoxo karen

Never thought i'd choose this.. :P

i am EMO. lets see.. black fingernails.. silence.. and evil thoughts in my head. :D lol. No, really.. i was positively QUIET today. :P i just didn't feel like talking. You know how sometimes you get days of extreme hyperness, when you laugh at everyting and anything? and then there are days when you just don't feel like talking to anyone and you just wanna sit in a corner quietly.. today was the latter for me. That, and I've also been extremely bitchy and evil to everyone. especially samson. LOL. samson, if you're reading this, I'M SORRY.. :( i just needed some time to cool down and get over my embarassment.

yes yes im still embarassed. :P but after i remember the pep talk the other night from Natasha, the facebook wall post, im feeling slightly better. :) lol. I'm leaving soon! In like 12 days not counting today! :P oh, and i've also found apartment-mates for when i'm in college in KL. whee! Just perfect. :) i no longer have to worry about sharing a house with total strangers. Now i have friends to share with! :) lol.

I'm totally looking forward to it. I know i picked such a long tough road for myself, choosing to do medicine, what with the many many years of constant studying, but now that i've chosen it, im so excited. I genuinely want to help people and heal sick people and all that. I've always wanted to pick a career where at the end of my working life, i'll be able to look back and realised that i've made a difference in other peoples' lives. I don't want to be stuck in a job that i hate and have to dread going to every single day.

And not to mention, i'll get to learn fascinating things.. doctors i've talked to are always saying that medical school is totally awesome.. :) such a long tiring road ahead, i'm sure, but then if God chose me to do this and made me decide to choose this for myself, then i trust that He will see me through it and i really won't have to do it all alone. :) whenever i feel even slightly doubtful of what i've chosen, i think about this fact and i feel all better, knowing that i've made the right decision.

xoxo karen

Argh.. Humiliation.. :(

OH GOSH. Well, today has been a solidly crappy day. :P lol. Okay. If today was a day dedicated to humiliate me, then congratulations everyone, you did your job really really well. :) haha. I don't know. Was i the ONLY ONE who noticed that at the whole table he was the ONLY ONE not saying ANYTHING?? i mean seriously. Did he seem even HALFWAY excited to be there. I don't think so. It was so awkward i could practically hear crickets. O_o" and now the next problem is, i doubt i could ever look at him without wanting the ground to open up and totally swallow me. :P yes, it was that bad. :P

I know that maybe you guys meant well. Im not angry. i'm just very very embarassed. :P HE DOES NOT LIKE ME. and no amount of bugging him will ever change that fact. so just leave it alone, never repeat it and maybe i will be able to live through the whole embarassing episode. O_o"

xoxo karen

Random thoughts.. :P

Oh what a fun day it has been! I am positively perky today. :D lol. We've learnt about laughing gas in Chemistry.. and i have a feeling there was some in the air today because for some reason Kim and I were extremely giggly today. even more then usual. we laughed at almost EVERYTHING. (think Phang Jason's Biology practical paper which we accidentally on purpose stained with iodine.. LOL.)

Hmm. what should I talk about today. Ah yes. IS Night is coming up! In like three days! :) I think I'm halfway excited about it, apart from the fact that i am officially date-less. :P I honestly didn't think it would be an issue, like i didn't think anyone would actually care to get a prom date but as it turns out, almost everyone has a date! :P I mean lets see. Indian@ Ashwin has a date. Adam has a date. Kim and Jovi, OBVIOUSLY. And like probably a million others that I don't really know about. :D lol. It's true! I. Am. Date-less. :P ah well.. I'm gonna keep myself busy doing a million things that night to prevent myself from wallowing in self pity. :D Not that i'm self-pitying or anything. :P ahem. :P yes. I wish he'd ask me. But because that's pretty much NOT GOING TO HAPPEN, i'm trying to stop hoping. :P

Hmm.. a random little fact, I just counted with my fingers, i have 8 MORE DAYS of attending Institut Sinaran before I leave for KL. I think so, anyways. WOW. I'm actually leaving the comfort of my home that I've known for like, ever, and going somewhere totally unknown in the middle of nowhere. :P LOL. sentimental a bit. :D I can adapt, i know i can. and i guess God really doesn't want me to put down any roots here at all, hence no progress with CNH. :D haha. I'm not complaining. Much. I mean i'm leaving soon, i don't want to think about him. Much. :P LOL. i'll forget him. Eventually. :)

xoxo karen

dum dum.. :P

Today has been another day of sickly-ness. :( I don't even remotely feel like pigging out, which is super unusual for me. :D But we all know misery loves company. And Kim was sick along with me! :) haha. Just kidding, its not like Im rejoicing in the fact that she's sickly as well. :D i'm mean but not that mean. (Kim, I can practically see your SMIRK. :P)

Lets see... Oh, I finally finally went for a jamming session today! :) i've been skipping the past million practices. :P and today I finally went. It was fun, though i still can't believe I'm actually singing bits of "Almost" by Bowling For Soup. I wonder if my screaming can be heard over the sounds of the drums and guitars. :P lol. I hope i don't totally make a fool of myself on sunday night. i mean its like the whole school is gonna be there. But no pressure. :P haha.

AND then there's the Yiruma song. I LOVE IT! River flows in you is such a lovely song. :) and to be completely honest, I was horrified at first when i realised there were gonna be drums and guitars playing too. But I am pleasantly surprised, it sounds good. :) as long as the guitars aren't too loud. Thanks to Tatianna for first introducing me to it. Tat-Tat, you're awesome. :) lol. I hope you're reading this, otherwise it'd be kinda pointless, me mentioning it here. :D haha. WTH, i am so rambling. :P lol.

OH! And I saw CNH today. HE SMILED AT ME! :) what sickening happiness. I disgust myself. :D LOL.

xoxo karen

Just a random picture because people tell me to put more pics in my blog. :D

This is a pic of Tat-Tat. The pretty person who taught me the Yiruma song. :)

A Little Message for you.. :P

Today has been a crappy day. :( been feeling sickly all day! Headache just won't seem to disappear.. I hope I feel better tommorow.. why couldn't i pick tommorow to be sick, that way, I could have skipped Physics tutorial. :D I HATE PHYSICS! :( especially the tutorial teacher. Ahem. :P I have nothing very interesting to say today... oh, wait! I do! :D Lets see. I think Jovi and Kim were absolutely right, if Loser sees my blog, then obviously he would know that samson is my fake boyfriend. :D haha. I should've thought of that, but I forgot. So in case Loser reads this, here's a little message for him. :)

Hey, Loser, aka LSC, so i guess even your tiny little brain managed to put two and two together and you now know that Samson is my fake boyfriend. But you obviously didn't need to send him your best wishes, because i would NEVER want to destroy samson. I like him too much. Its only disgusting ugly worms like YOU that i take pleasure in stepping on and squishing until you are nothing but a pile of slime dirtying the bottom of my shoe. And don't say I'm being mean, I know I'M NOT. I tried being nice, didn't I but you decided to be evil, so now you can see how evil I can really be. I'm not afraid of you. For some weird reason you seem to think you're perfect, but trust me, YOU'RE NOT. And i am SO GLAD i destroyed you. :) It was really fun. :)

There we go. :) but because he's so stupid, i wonder if he can even read and understand what i just typed. :D haha

xoxo karen

Humiliating the LOSER.. :P

Whee! What an interesting day it has been. :) firstly, I've been crazy perky all day. I mean it. I go around with a very perky tone of voice, two pitches higher than my usual voice. and THEN, I say the most horribly perky things. example, "Oh, isn't it a LOVELY day today? the sun is shining in the sky!" and more horrible phrases like that. XD haha. The complete opposite of my usual evil self. XD lol. And that was what caused me to do something dumb. It started when Kim reminded me that it was somebady's birthday. That somebody happened to be a loser, who shall be known in this blog only as L. He LOVED me and was convinced I loved him back. Which is entirely untrue. :D haha. ANYWAY, being perky and somewhat crazy, I texted him. Here is our whole conversation. (censored in the appropriate places, of course. :D) lol.

Me: Happy birthday. :)

Loser: Thanks. But umm.. who's this?

Me: Karen.

Loser: Oh, this is the biggest farce of all. Hahaha. Oh, the irony. The karen who played me out, down in the ground for a guy who you knew I treated more than a friend? The same karen who's now spoilt her poor brother's wish to play football? N now this same karen is wishing me happy bday? :) hahaha. Seriously, who is this? :) anthony, is tha you?

Me: Haha.. It's karen. For real.

Loser: I see. Same karen who's devastated her bro's football hopes, huh?

(The whole time, I was honestly wishing him happy birthday with sincerity. I mean, tying up loose ends and all. But after that text, I thought, what the hell. If he's going to be evil, then so am I. I was sick of him at that point, anyway. And kim and jovi encouraged me and supported me! So HERE'S what I said next........ ;) )

Me: Yeap, the one and only! :) oh it makes me so very happy to destroy and crush other peoples' dreams. :) i love myself, honestly. :)

Loser: N why am i not surprised? So, is this bday wish supposed to be another characteristic scheme of yours?

(and this is when samson comes in. He's my bestest guy friend in the whole world. :) yes samson, its true. You're probably reading this. XD lol. Anyway, i thought samson could be my pretend boyfriend. Just to piss off the loser. XD hahaha. Kim and jovi and samson thought it was a good idea. :D I'm done being nice. )

Me:oh no, i didnt wana wish you happy bday. but then my super tall, handsome and sweet boyfriend told me i shd text n wish happy bday to the people i once destroyed. :D hahaha. so yeah, thats why i texted. No scheme thr. just pure goodness of my boyfriend's heart. haha.

Loser: Oh great. u found another good guy to destroy. Since you sent me two pleasant words in happy bday, i'll reciprocate. Thank u. :) now f**k off, self gratifying disillusioned oversized slut. N give your boyfriend my best wishes. He'll need them.

And that's when i stopped replying. Instead, Samson, my fake boyfriend replied instead. IT WAS AMAZING! samson, you're BRILLIANT. i never thought i'd say it, but its true. :) LOVE YA! XD

Samson, my "boyfriend": I don't need your best wishes, you cunt. I love my gf, and i cnt believe she ever chose a loser like you. Lucky she has better taste now. Now go wank your peanut, you panzy. If i see another mean msg, i'll shank you.

AND THE LOSER DIDNT REPLY! omg samson was so funny. And i thought he was a nice guy. Thank you, samson. :) you made my day. :)

Like I said, interesting day. :)

xoxo karen

Shop shop.. :)

I bought my prom dress today! :) and its less than two weeks before prom. Its a very simple black dress, but I don't mind because really, it's not my night, its the seniors'. :) so i don't mind looking simple and understated, cos I'm gonna have fun anyway regardless of what I wear. I hope. XD kim, if you're reading this, don't kill me. I know we were supposed to shop together and all, it's just that I found the perfect dress and if I dont get it now it might disappear by next week! PLUS it was the last one left. :) haha. Oh, and i got a matching necklace to go with it. XD

It's officially been a week since I told him. I'm extremely depressed. And i can't help but wonder if he thinks about

me as often as I think about him. My guess is, probably not. :S honestly, at the moment I really thought that after telling, it would give me closure and I would be able to move on. But i think I'm wrong, its not so much that I can't move on, it seems like i don't really want to. Its hard to explain why I'm holding on to something that does nothing and gives me absolutely nothing but pain, but that's just how it is. I don't understand myself, either. And i wish I could find a way to just let go. But then... if you can't get rid of someone from your mind, maybe it's just because they're meant to be there. <3

xoxo karen.

P.S. my thoughts exactly.

ouch, needle. :(

i got to skip school again today! and once again, for a crappy reason. medical checkup! that i've been putting off for as long as possible.. lol. i hate getting injections. :S i mean i really really hate it. so painful. and if people ask me, "HOw are you gonna be a doctor?" i stick firm to my belief.. that jabbing a needle into someone else is ALOT easier than getting a needle jabbed into myself. O_o. i can easily handle poking someone else with that horrible, sharp thing. -.-" they jabbed me only twice today. and each time i promptly burst into tears. the first was to collect my blood to test it. i cried while a VERY cute male nurse looked at me curiously and tried hard not to laugh. I swear i could see him stifling his laughter! AND as I left the room I could hear him giggle. O_o. stupid. i've always hated nurses anyway. O_o The second jab was the Montoux test where they check if you have TB. IT HURT LIKE HELL. i mean it! and when it was over there was a huge swollen bump on my arm. T.T today was indeed a depressing day. :S AND the worst part is I have to go back in three days time for them to measure that stupid bump. -_-" how fun. I can hardly wait.

xoxo karen

P.S. I'm still not over him. CNH. :P

Helloo, life with straight hair. :D

OMG! I am seriously freaking exhausted today. :( again! haha. Ironic though, cos today I spent pretty much all day sitting in a chair. I got my already somewhat straight hair rebonded today. :3 My Godbrother Dives did it for me, he's amazingly good at anything involving hair.. and he did a great job with my hair. :3 Straightening my short shoulder length hair took a mind-blowing, butt-cramping, agonizing 5 HOURS. :O the whole time, I had to sit in the same chair and try not to fall asleep. :S Not that I could easily fall asleep.. The chair was horribly uncomfortable, my hair reeked of ammonia, and my butt hurt. :'( lolx. An "insane medieval torture" as Samson puts it. :) hehe.

Let's see. This is for the benefit of you few people who have NOT done anything to your hair yet, what I like to call, virgin hair. XD To be honest, before today I had virgin hair too. I have never dyed, permed, rebonded, bleached or done ANYTHING other than cut and wash my hair at a hair salon. XD So anyways, today I pretty much kissed goodbye to healthy hair. Dives told me that once hair is rebonded, the whole strand of hair is dead. Yes, DEAD. It may LOOK alive and healthy, but looks can be decieving. XD so I am now going around with a headful of fabulous, shiny, super-straight strands of DEAD HAIR. :X

So why did it take 5 hours? Lets see. first off, he washed my hair, and then dried it. Then he cut and layered and basically thinned out my hair. It took FOREVER. :X but then, he knows more about hair than I do. :D and then comes the smelly part. A whole tube of Lo'real rebonding cream was used on my head. IT SMELLED BAD. Dives very kindly told me it was ammonia. :P But really, while Lo'real may be more expensive, I think its better to spend a little more money and get it done right, than to use some chep cream and have it go horribly wrong. :X this cream is to open up the pores of my head and soften it. Basically, the chemicals kill and totally dry out my hair. And it was BORING cos I had to wait a whole 80 MINUTES for the chemicals to seep in. o_O

And then.. 80 minutes later... (80 MINUTES!!) He washes everything out. and once again dries my hair. And then comes the hot iron. He pulls each strand of hair straight with the iron. It only vaguely hurts because my hair was kinda straight to begin with. And after all was pulled, comes another kind of lotion. This one smells good, its cold, and it only takes 15 minutes! It's to close up my pores. :) lolx.

after THAT, he once again rinses out my hair and once again dries it. And finally, I'M DONE! a whole headful of dead hair for my enjoyment. :) The whole thing cost me RM 180. and as i look at myself in the mirror, I think I like how I look. dead hair and all. :) Dives says it turned out better than he expected. and he described my newly straightened hair as silk! :D haha. well, I hope you other virgin hair people enjoyed that GRAPHIC description of everything. :D hehe. The procedure is actually a LOT more boring than it sounds. Yes, that bad. :X

YAY! I have pretty straight hair! :)

xoxo karen

Forgive, just don't forget. :P

Today was a somewhat busy day, and i'm exhausted. :( All the preparations i've had to do before leaving to KL. The huge packet of forms and instructions and contracts that I received from JPA regarding my scholarship sits in a corner, all photocopied and all unread. :P Not that I didn't try or anything, its just that I got very confused and blur trying to read it all. And apparently I'm not the only one. :D My friend and soon-to-be apartment and room mate is having trouble reading and understanding the huge packet, too. :D its goooood to know i'm not alone in all this. :)

I actually LEARNT something today! I learnt.. drum roll please.. to forgive. :D that's right.. i think i'm growing up! :D hmm.. what i've been trying to do lately, before i leave, is pretty much to tie up loose ends and apologize to anyone i've hurt lately or have been ignoring lately. I wanna have peace of mind when i'm in KL.. And i've been doing just that.. (apologized to Jeremy a couple of days ago :P lol) and today I finally talked to Adam. Well, through text message anyways. I can't bring myself to talk to him face to face, not just yet anyway. I havent spoken to him since February, since our whole big "incident". ahem. and all this time, I havent really thought about him or anything. I've been known to say "I wanna step on him with sharp, high heels." yes, that bad. :D

but seriously. Today I finally allowed myself to let go of all the pain and hurt I've been holding on for these couple of months. And it feels good. Really. I once read somewhere, that eventually you realise that you have to let go of grudges, because they just hurt. Speaking from experience, i finally know exactly how true this is. I've been through it, and while it sucks to be hurt by someone you trusted, letting it go is much better. It's not saying that what he did was okay. It's simply saying that I'm forgiving and forgetting.

I read in 5 People You Meet In Heaven (by Mitch Albom) that forgiveness was one of the things the main character, Eddie had to learn when he got to heaven. That by forgiving, you release all the anger and hatred you've been holding for way too long. Til today, that book is still one of my favourites. And I believe its something we must all learn.

When he texted me today, Adam asked me if I still hated him. And I could honestly answer him, "No." :)

xoxo karen

My Friday,.

Today is officially a good day. :D why do I say so? I got to miss school today. :) but it wasnt like for a fun reason or anything.. :P had a hospital appointment, so decided to completely miss school for a whole day. i'm not complaining. Ah, and it does make me smirk when I realise my poor classmates are sitting in class listening to a Physics lecture. ;) My appointment was alright, its a routine checkup for my heart that I do year after year after year, thanks to a heart valve that doesn't function exactly right.. :P its pretty straightforward usually, i just lie there and wait for the doctor to smear disgusting jelly-like stuff that is super cold on my chest and scan it with an ECG.. i still can't exactly pronounce the word.. hmm.. Electrocadiogram. thats right. :D haha. then i just lay there and stared at the screen for awhile. lots of greyish weird moving blurry images on the screen. it reminds me of those screens that pregnant people look at when the doctor scans their babies. :D i think its probably the same thing. All these years going for the same inevitable routine checkup, I never actually find out what I am looking at on the screen. :D i figured I shouldnt ask the doctor, seeing as I probably wouldn't understand what he was saying anyways. The doctor IS really nice, but I wouldn't wanna push it, would I?.. :P

xoxo karen

There's a first time for everything...

this is my very first time starting a blog! *dances around* :D just kidding, i'm really not as crazy as all that.. not most of the time, anyway. :P i just started this blog because it is such a good way for me to vent.. or to simply type about random things that i have in my head but can't quite express.. hmm.. for this first post.. today was a pretty good day for me. :) for the first time in forever, i actually played basketball! and with my guy friends who are super good at it. XD i really think i might have totally humiliated myself. :D but i was having so much fun, i really couldn't care less. :D haha. i think i might just exercise more from now on. :S hmm.. i think i don't really feel like typing too much cos its getting late and i'm getting sleepy. may i dream of pretty things tonight. :D *zzzz*..

xoxo karen <3

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