Learn to let go of the past, and recognize that every day won’t be sunny. And when you find yourself lost in the darkness and despair, remember it’s only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars will lead you back home. So don’t be afraid to make mistakes, to stumble and fall, because most of the time, the greatest rewards come from doing the things that scare you the most. Maybe you’ll get everything you wish for. Maybe you’ll get more than you ever could have imagined. Who knows where life will take you. The road is long and in the end, the journey is the destination.

♥

i really like collecting tickets. XD I think some got lost or misplaced, cause I should definitely have more than this, but anyway.

1. Angels and Demons

2. Date Night

3. Orphan

4. Salt

5. Gulliver's Travels

6. Tekken

7. Sex and the City 2

8. Clash of the Titans

9. Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

10. Surrogates

11. Transformers (Revenge of the Fallen)

12. Departures

13. Sherlock Holmes

14. Blood: The Last Vampire

15. Eclipse

16. Faster

17. Iron Man 2

18. The Tourist

19. Prince of Persia

20. Confessions of A Shopaholic

21. Night at the Museum 2

22. New Moon

23. The Sorcerer's Apprentice

24. Jennifer's Body

25. Despicable Me

26. Alice in Wonderland

:D I must be so bored.

updatess :)

So I was out the other night with Sam and we went to the beach (which was not awesome, sadly, hahaha) and then we went to a bar and had these *OMG PORKGASMIC* sandwiches. :D (the word will FOREVER be tattooed in my mind, PORKGASMIC hahaha) and I tried rum for the first time. Its so freaking delicious I wonder why I haven't tried it earlier! :P

I want a perfume that smells like rum. So yummy. :)

And then yesterday we watched Faster, there were only 5 people in the whole cinema. (Suria is really sad, haha) and it was a good movie! :D At least I think it was. Dwayne Johnson is so buff, I love him. But it wasn't as AWESOME as The Tourist, of course. Johnny Depp FTW! I will love him forever. (fangirl much?)

Currently excited because:

1. CNY is coming up! :) A time to EAT. And see relatives I haven't seen in forever.

2. Sarawak friends are coming over on the 10th! Excited max. :) Saw the event planned by Maeggy on fb. *grin grin grin*

3. I haven't chosen a present from my dad yet! (for my results). I wanted hair extensions but it was a very firm NO from both parents, grr. IDK what I want instead, though.

4. Trip to Manukan! (if it EVER stops raining around here)

5. my future. :) (yes for the first time in forever, I'm excited about the future. abit. :P)

back to tumblring! ♥

make it bigger and READ!

THIS IS DAMN FUNNEH. XD

The thing is,

truth be told, its very very hard for me to be happy when so many of my friends aren't. :| I wish everyone made it, I really do. I think God has other plans for them, and He knows best. He always does. However, it probably doesn't make it any easier to accept.

So this is for my friends, who worked hard and are all seriously, deserving. I pray that you guys will be strong, and I pray that God bless you guys, comfort you, and reveal His glorious plans to you. May you guys all still be able to achieve your dreams. :)

♥ karen ♥

:D

I'M GOING TO INDIA! WOOOOOOOOOOOTS!

Tomorrow's the day!

I'm scared, seriously, I am. For the longest time I've been trying to just NOT think about it, just lie in denial or whatever. But now that its tomorrow I don't see how I can avoid it any longer. :P

Pray for me, whoever's reading this, please? This is my future. :| I think I don't wanna call and find out my results la tomorrow. ARGHAGHJSGAHJDBVSHGVDK.

sports and shopssss. :)

MN sports day today, went, met haikal, sat and chatted with him like, um, throughout the thing. XP. He's awesome as always. X)

THINGS I LEARNT TODAY.

• OMG my brother can RUN, he joined four events (ALL long distance some more) won at least a 3rd in all, and after that still not tires, managed to go out and spend all evening with his friends. :P HAHA 15 year olds obviously have more energy than 18 year olds like me. :P

• I didn't even sit in the sun, and yet when I got home, OMG my arms are totally RED, I look like a effing prawn! :( so I had to mutilate the aloe plants in my garden and smother them all over my arms. Ew.

• I MISS KL SHOPPING MALLS. I love Sabah, really, I do, but unfortunately the stores here SUCK. Like I shopped for 4 hours and was exhausted and couldn't find exactly what I wanted. :( I want pretty, affordable accesories! Vincci is crazy expensive. I miss Diva! I want Diva! I loved the Midvalley branch and visited so much that the girl working there knows me! :( *tantrum.

• Happily, I am still a size 6! :D :D

• Shopping alone is boring. :P

But on the bright side, I'm DONE with shopping! too lazy already. HAH never thought I'd say that, lol. :P

♥ karen

loves

JOHNNY DEPP.

THE TOURIST.

OH-EM-GEE he's so hawt.

Amy, the movie was gooood. :) (i finally watched it, hahaha)

-karen

:P

Whoever said looks don't matter was lying.

I wish I could be one of those people who don't mind how a guy looks and can date him based on personality alone, but nooooo, I care about looks. Everyone does! Admit it. :P I wouldn't want to date a guy who doesn't look good. :P Fine you can say I'm not very pretty either but I think I'm certainly not UGLY, lol, and I would want someone at least same level as me X)

Why do you think girls spend so much money on their hair and clothes and makeup? And why do you think guys are obsessed with working out at the gym? We are all attracted to pretty things, its human nature. :)

idk what was the point of this post, so don't even ask. :P They're just random musings. X)

Remembering Bubble. :'(

she got eaten by a bird.

I know I've abandoned this blog in favor of my tumblr, but here I am now!

Just to post up some pictures so that my blog doesn't COMPLETELY die. XP

Past few days have been spent taking photos of random things. ;)

xoxo

"My heart didn’t break into a thousand pieces after he left. Instead, I realized all the things he didn’t do. He didn’t want to hear my stories. He didn’t ask me questions. He didn’t smile when I was talking to him. He didn’t hug me out of the blue to make me feel good. After he was gone, I wondered if he ever knew me at all."

"if you are trapped between your feelings and what other people think is right, always go for whatever makes you happy. Unless you want everybody to be happy, except you.

-I wish I understood this earlier. It would have saved me a lot of pain. ♥

update

HAD THE MOST AWESOME DAY! :)

watched Season of the witch (at least, thats what I think it's called, lol) It was scary, I screamed and made a fool of myself. T.T

And then rock climbing with the girls. ♥ IT WAS SO FUN. ;D Okay so my arms are hurting like SO MUCH, and I'm basically in pain. But I totally wanna go again! (the dude working there is brutal. I wanted to give up cause my arms hurt SOOO bad but he wouldn't put me down til I reached the very top. :P)

THE SATISFACTION WHEN I DID REACH THE TOP. :>

Anyways. Went over to Derek's, where he taught me to mix music (he took a course and is a DJ, lol) and taught me to read guitar tabs. yay me, I can finally read 'em! :) I had fun, but my fingers are peeling. :(

It has been a gooood day. :)

dear blog.

im sorry, i think i've converted to tumblr, at least for awhile. :P

MUST. STEAL. ONE. ♥

♥♥♥

HAD A GREAT DAY. :)

Oh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TATIANNA! :)

(i know you read this when you're in australia, idk if you read it now that you're home, but whatever. ;D)

We've been friends for umm, 6 years? And she's one of my best friends, EVER, so its a big deal LOL. *hunts through laptop for old picture to make her cringe in embarrassment*

TAADA. ;D

YEARS AGO:

damn i used to have long hair. :'(

YEARS LATER:

and this is us currently.

Oh my we have grown. ;D

I love youuu! ♥ I hope you had a good time today :)

*HUGSSSS!*

Think of the last person you hugged. What would you do if they vanished completely?

hmmm. I can't remember who's the last person I hugged. Samson I think. :O

Well if he disappeared I would obviously be depressed. D: He's one of my closest friends I think. Can't imagine him gone forever. And I'll be all alone if he's gone. *awwwwwww.

This was a retarded question. X)

Oh so cool. :)

Think of a recent experience that has affected you greatly and how.

Alaaaaa. This is another hard one. :P

Okay well, it didn't affect me GREATLY or anything, and I dunno if it even answers the challenge but today I finally got the confidence to talk to this cute guy that I've been stalking noticing since I was like.. fourteen? O_o I know right, 5 years later then say a few random words to the guy hahaha.

So um.. the point of me saying it? well hmm. I guess I'm just happy I finally talked to the dude. :P yay me! ♥

my inner alcoholic approves. X)

naaah jk. i don't even like beer. :O

Pick a song that projects the same mood as your day or week.

ERM.

Jesse McCartney- UP.

Cause the song is awesome and today I feel awesome ahahaha.

and plus I had no idea JM had such a nice song. O_o

OMG LOOK!

hello kitty SUSHI. :O

What do you think it means to be in love?

OHHHHHkay this is hard.

I think I've never been in love. :O (except for shoes la ahaha). I'm going to be forever ALONE. :(

Okay fine. *serious sudah ni* Lemme think. Hmm. Being in love, I think, would mean sacrifice. Its not about what you can get from someone else, rather, its about how you can make the other person happy. Its about staying awake until 3am, or not sleeping all night if you have to, just to be on the phone with him. Its about not buying that gorgeous pair of heels (*OMG) because you wanna save the money to get him something nice instead. :O

HAHAHA what would I know about love. I've never even lasted more than a few months with a guy. :P I admire the people who can be with someone for years. To me that will only happen if the guy is truly special. :P

I think being in love doesn't necessarily have to be like, thinking about someone all day, or spending all your time with him. I think you can be far away and yet be in love. Its a matter of trust and knowing that although you COULD have someone else, you don't WANT anyone else. You want him. Simple as that. :)

*i think i didn't really do a good job with this one. :|

YAY :]

FINALLY watched Gulliver's Travels yesterday, and had dinner with Samson. Movie was goood, bak kut teh was AWESOME. ♥ And I'm going to miss Sam when he leaves. :(

ANYWAYS. I've been sitting here all morning. And notice! I added links to friends' blogs and beauty blogs I like at the bottom of the page. Okay its not that many links, but I just didn't know who to add. D: So anyone who wants me to add a link to their blog, just lemme know. :D

And I also added a link to my tumblr! Its been kinda abandoned but I decided to give it some love. SO YOU SHOULD TOO KAY. :)) *note, its not very pretty yet and there aren't many posts. I'll add them slowwwwwly.

Okay thats all. :)

xoxo ♥

♥

I WANT.

How do you think people see you? Be a little positive and a little negative.

Got more negative than positive la.

Negative: When I started college, there were people who thought I was, and I quote, "wild". I had no idea, but some of them (cough qiqi cough) even thought I was not a virgin. LOL. I find it funny now but back then I was horrified. People thought I was the type of girl who stays out all night in clubs, drinking or whatever. And when I asked why, they just said I "look" like "the type". Seriously? Do I look like "the type"? :p girls in class constantly looked at me weirdly just because I like wearing short shorts. (I don't blame them I guess, their religion emphasizes the need to cover up and be modest in dressing, and I understand that now) but back then I got super defensive though, and wore what I wanted anyway. :p the guys in class thought I was sengal because I constantly told them how much I missed my dogs. :p all these opinions don't bother me anymore, though. Everyone's entitled to their own opinions. ;)

Positive: people think I'm nerdy. :D because I wear nerd glasses and I'm going to do medic. XD but I take it as a positive thing because nerdy means smart, yes? ;p I've been told that I'm fun to shop with, which I personally think is a really nice thing. :D haha.

Yeeaaaah definitely more negatives. :/ okay bye.

:)

;)

HELLO KITTY SNOWMEN.

HOW CUTE IS THAT?!?!

Who are you? In comparison to who you used to be. What made you change?

I used to be a lot more easygoing. I used to not be easily worried or anxious. And I used to be way too naive, and I trust people easily.

Hahaha sad to say I'm not anymore. :p I guess it's because I'm older now. Its just expected of me to start growing up maybe? The many lectures I've heard from parents and lecturers do have an impact on me, I realize I have to think constantly about my future. I worry way too much now. Example, upcoming results. Makes me queasy just thinking about it. Sighs. I don't easily trust others anymore either simply because I've been disappointed many times? i'm not bitter or anything though, I've just learnt a lot. :)

On a more positive note though, I used to be extremely dependent on others. And I'm quite happy to say I'm not anymore, hehe. Probably it was because of my 1.5 years in college. The lack of personal transport, money and etc taught me to take public transport, travel alone sometimes and be extremely frugal, hahaha. I think of it this way. If I save money on food, I get thinner AND get to spend the extra money on clothes, shoes, makeup etc. ;p and traveling on a super tight budget with Sarah was an awesome experience, living in cheap motels show how much I wanted to save money. :p

Okay so I think mostly the reason I'm different from how I used to be is college. XD

:)

Ps. Made it thru 2nd day! :D

nader you must see this :D

NADER AND I WHEN WE SIT IN CLASS TOGETHER. ♥

:D

What happened today? If it was the last day of your life, would you be satisfied with your final hours?

Soooo. Today Derek and Jeremy were in the area and picked me up to go hang out. I have seen them lately and all, but I do love hanging out with them. We did nothing in particular, just drive around KK and stopped at Wisma, Suria, and Karamunsing to get Derek's stuff.

It was fun! Given the umm, history between Jeremy and I waaaaaaaaaaaaay back (years ago, lol) I thought it might be a little awkward but I was wrong, it was totally fine and I felt comfortable. These guys are great friends, always able to make me laugh and I'm glad we're in touch even after graduation.

Oh and then we drove to school to pick up their SPM certs and look around at how much it changed. It was both nostalgic and rather funny cause we always said we would never miss MN, (and I still don't) but its true high school was fun because of the people we knew. We even met some old teachers who amazingly remembered our names. (HAHA)

So if today was the last day of my life, I can say I would be satisfied. I was happy today. I spoke to both parents and brother and cuddled the dogs. I spent time with friends. It was a good day. :)

♥

15daychallenge. :D

1. What happened today? If it was the last day of your life, would you be satisfied with your final hours?

2. Who are you? In comparison to who you used to be. What made you change?

3. How do you think people see you? Be a little negative and a little positive.

4. What do you think it means to be in love?

5. Pick a song that projects the same mood as your day or week.

6. Think of a recent experience that has affected you greatly and how.

7. Think of the last person you hugged. What would you do if they vanished completely?

8. Write about the first moment that comes to your mind when you read the words "childhood memory".

9. What do you believe in? (not just God, or atheism.)

10. Who was the last person you kissed? What would they think if they saw you now?

11. Talk about a moment you were truly happy. What was happening? Who were you with?

12. Where do you see yourself in 10 years?

13. What are you passionate about?

14. If you could be anywhere in the world, but for a cause, where would you be and why?

15. What do you think it means to be a good parent?

P/S this was supposed to be a 30 day challenge but I seriously doubt I can finish it. SOOOOO I cut it down to 15 days. Again I doubt I can finish it. BUT I WILL TRY! :)

xoxo♥

♥

Dear whoever, if you buy me this shoe, I will love you forever and ever and ever and EVER.

xoxo♥

Why Hello 2011 ♥

Be nice to me alright? :)

The best things about 2010.

Kept hamsters and watched them have babies!

Learned to play guitar.

Graduated A Levels in the jungle.

Started learning to (properly) use makeup! :D

Went to Japan. :*

I'm going to forget the not so nice memories of 2010. ;)

And I'm excited for 2011!

XOXO karen ♥ ♥ ♥