Class-free today! :)

Have to study in the library again.

Sarah going out! :3

Felicia went home! :3 :3 haha.

Oh how bored I am.

I would have liked to go out, but my conscience tells me to STAY HOME AND STUDY.

Riiight. Okay.

I've been wondering since last night. Did I do the right thing?..

I need an honest opinion. S:

xoxo karen

Today was officially nerdy.

OMG, 5 hours of sitting in the library doing maths. :P

Exams looming. :(

And guess where I'm off to now?

STUDY IN THE LIBRARY. (:

xoxo karen

CF KTT

Okay, so I haven't been attending CF since forever.

And there are people who actually ask me why.

I've wanted to post about this for such a long time, I just never got around to doing it, but I will now.

So yeah.. I am Catholic. I have been since I was a baby.. And I've always said, I thank God that my parents got me baptised when I was so young, so I didn't have to make a choice myself, which one, Catholic or Protestant?.. Because I believe, as we grow older we're pulled in so many directions by a lot of influences. And anyone reading this, being Catholic, would agree, Protestants can sometimes be aggressive when getting people to join their church. Correct? I OBVIOUSLY don't expect Protestants to agree with me on this point. But I repeat, ANYONE CATHOLIC READING THIS WOULD AGREE.(Or, anyone with Catholic friends.)

My friends have asked me before, to join their churches. And I've always said no. Because I think, we must NEVER EVER forget who we really are. And so, I've always stood firm on this believe, and I'm happy to say I've never been to a Protestant church.

I am happy to be Catholic. I love being Catholic. Which is exactly why I have NOT been attending CF. And most of my Catholic friends haven't, either. Don't get me wrong la, I do have friends who are Protestant. I am NOT against it. I don't think its wrong to be. Its just different from being Catholic.

Protestants, IN MY OPINION, often criticise the way Catholics do things. Example. I've had Protestant friends say our masses are too formal. Too BORING. Just because we don't jump around and shout when we worship. But looking at it from a different perspective, our NOT jumping around, etc etc, just shows that we respect the House of God. We don't shout because we want a quiet atmosphere to praise and worship Him in our hearts. There are other ways to show we worship God. Its just different from how they see things.

I used to think, that we all worship the same God. That we are all the same.. But now I think differently because the way they act is just different from us, and not only that, they don't seem to want to understand why we feel the way we do.

Apostles Creed. There's a line, I believe in the Holy Catholic Church.. And because I recite this all the time, it only makes sense that I follow what I'm reciting, right?.. The Apostles Creed states all that I believe in, its something I live by.

Anyways. Its my own personal decision whether or not to go for CF and I think we all have a right to decide for ourselves. There is really no right or wrong here, its just me expressing my opinion. This is something I feel strongly about. Its not like I think Catholics are BETTER than Protestants, or vice versa. We're all JUST DIFFERENT.

I hope this post doesn't piss anyone off. :P I don't mean to offend anyone. This is a super extremely sensitive issue to talk about, I know.

xoxo karen

Hello world. :D

I haven't updated my blog in agesssss. :P Or so it seems.

Okay. So I don't really know what to type about... Oh! I know! A new, seemingly impossible mission I'm on. To lose weight in a month. :D haha. I hate being fat. :( And plus my family's coming over to see me in a month and I don't want them to see a fat girl. :( haha.

Horrible, eh.. I'm eating less, exercising more. :P haha.

ANYWAY. I finally wore my pretty Nichii heels yesterday. :D So gorgeous. :D hehe. Not so painful I can't stand it lah. But yeah.. oh gosh, random.. :P haha. I just love them so much. :) Shoe-aholic. :D

OH! I wanted to say something, but since Felicia is RIGHT beside me, never mind. :D

Hmmm. Never mind. Time for me to go to the library and study like a good little nerd. :D

xoxo karen

Its official.

I HATE THAT BITCH!

Stupid stupid stupid girl.

Why don't you just tie him up and lock him in your closet then?

So you don't have to worry about anyone else talking to him.

(I don't normally swear on my own blog. But I'm just so pissed. And I haven't been this pissed in a long time.)

And I HOPE YOU READ THIS. Cos seriously, I hate you so much right now. I won't even PRETEND to be nice to you. And I swear I won't be the one who ends this. I AM NOT TALKING TO YOU BEFORE YOU TALK TO ME.

And in fact, I don't even give a crap whether or not you talk to me ever again.

ASSHOLE.

xoxo karen

I am a short person.

There! I've admitted it. :D hahaha.

I'm not ashamed of it. I'm not resentful. Its just part of who I am.

I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE PICK ON ME FOR BEING SHORT.

So freaking what?

I know I am. I KNOW. Why remind me of something like that? I'm comfortable with it. Why shouldn't you be? ITS MY BODY NOT YOURS.

For what its worth, I love my own body. And its not like I get pissed when people criticise it, its just that I don't think they have the right to. Okay, so what if you're taller than I am? The way I see it, I get to wear sexy fabulous high heels and you get stuck with FLAT SHOES!!!! :D HAR HAR HAR!!!

AND, AND, AND. Its easier for me to find boyfriend compared to YOU! :D heh!

Okay, not very mature. :D hehe. No lah. I SO don't mean it that way. I have tons of gorgeous tall friends whom I love. Tatianna. Sarah. Shana. I love you guys. That little outburst was just meant for MEAN people who pick on me and call me SHORT and FAT without provocation. :P haha. Its so mean. And it makes me think, Who the hell are you to judge me?

I'm not bitter or anything. I accept my body despite its flaws and imperfections. God made me and He doesn't make trash. :)

xoxo karen

I have learnt a few things this weekend.

1. Its really really nice to watch morning movie. ONLY RM6! Surrogates was awesome! :) The whole cinema was like empty except for like 15 of us :P BUT BUT, have to wake up super early. Like, at 8.30am early. :( LOL.

2. I've decided I don't like Carlsberg. :( Not yummy at all. Wine is so much better ;) (actually, no, scratch that, champagne is still the best ;D)

3. Waffle has VERY VERY LOW ALCOHOL TOLERANCE. :P (her whole face became a watermelon. :P And it was just Carlsberg, by the way. Tidak sampai satu tin pun. :D) (AND she becomes crazy. :P) She used to bully me about being alcoholic. Now, SHE'S the one that's hooked. :S

4. Enchanted Wine Cooler is super delicious. :D hehe. Seriously. Oh, my. Totally indulged my alcoholic side this weekend. :P

5. I MISS HIM VERY VERY MUCH. :((((((((((( Whole weekend without him is just sad. :P haha. Ish. I don't even want to miss him, I just do.

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Oh, and Happy Deepavali. I love holidays, it gives me the excuse to be lazy although its not like I celebrate it or anything. Just tumpang to enjoy. :D hehe.

xoxo karen :)

Okay, so.. I'd just like to clarify something.

Cos what Qiqi said today TOTALLY shocked the hell outta me. :P heh.

Seeing as I know people actually read my "pretty pinky blog" :D haha.

Here it is.

I DON'T LIKE THE TREE!!!!!!!!

We're just friends.

Its someone else.

Thats right, keep guessing. ;)

:)

xoxo karen

My roommate is secretly blogging.

So because I'm so kiasu, I decided to blog too. Cos I don't want to be left out. :D HEHEHEHE.

NO lah. That little outburst was just to make this most more lighthearted.

Seriously.

This post goes out to a friend of mine.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm total crap at keeping in touch. I'm like unable to see you often or communicate with you often, and I'm sorry.

I virtually have NO IDEA what's going on in your life.. And I only ever hear about you from someone else. But what I've heard surprises me.

Stop for a moment here to let me say, I WILL NEVER SMOKE. NEVER EVER. I respect myself enough to not torture my own body with stuff that'll only harm myself.

I didn't. I won't ever. But did you? I don't know. We never really talk much anymore do we..?

And there's that other thing.

Again, let me just say here, in my opinion, if your boyfriend/girlfriend/whatever was willing to hurt you and cause you pain and not immediately apologize, but rather, go around like it was nothing, then he doesn't love you. And if he doesn't love you, he isn't worth your time. What's to say he won't hurt you again? Hence, my personal policy of NOT ever dating any of my ex's again. (If it didn't work out the first time, why should it work out now?)

I don't know really how to put all this down without sounding judgmental. I mean, you might be thinking like, I don't know what I'm talking about.. who am I to tell you what to do.. And who am I to give you relationship opinions sedangkan I got no boyfriend myself right now.. But I'll just say this- love isn't supposed to hurt you. And love shouldn't make you feel desperate.

I say all this stuff out of concern and care for you... I swear I'm not trying to judge you.. I just care.. And I'm here for you.

xoxo karen

ALL8!

So I've been stranded in KL for months now. (miss mummy and daddy and Fluffy and Brownie and Walnut and and.. oh, right. My brother. :D)

And I've been dedicating blog posts to random people :D

I haven't updated my blog in days and since I'm so bored, I think I'll dedicate this blog post to my classmates.

ALL 8 2009! :)

I kinda love my classmates. I mean I spend so much time with them every single day, besides my own housemates. Thinking about it, they are like practically family to me now.

OMG, how embarrassing if some of them read this post. :D haha.

Okay well. A photo, taken at Nemo's "surprise" birthday party a couple of weeks ago. (it was more of just an excuse to throw flour and be crazy. :D)

I'll start with Faruqi.. that I never address by anything other than Qiqi.. President of Student Council and his own little world, Qiqiland :D

Then Say.. Our adorable asst class rep who is crazy and it hurts like hell when she punches me D:

Hazlin.. The really short evil girl who insults me alot. :P (But she can get away with it thanks to her cute-ness) :)

Ib.. Her housemate and the calmest girl in our class who never yells and never screams and never.. well, I've made my point. :)

Amalina.. I don't know her all that well yet but she's nice la I think :)

Ezza.. She lives in my tangga.. :D

Nader.. She is so damn loud :P haha.

Shana.. My darling Sabahan friend, the only girl in class I can speak Sabahan with, BAH. :) hehe.

Amy.. She makes me laugh and I like her alot alot alot. :) Especially her crazy obsession with her rabbits. :D

Nemo.. He. Is. Just. Evil. Enough said. :P

Hanif.. I call him monkey. :D

Shah.. He has white glasses. OMG he reminds me of the only other guy I know with white glasses. CHIA. :D

Gavin.. *so-called scandal* :S hahaha.

Ika.. Sweet, shy, and quiet. :) Mata sepet. :D

Ferd.. Crazy. Thats all I can describe him as. :P

Nisa.. The girl with the adorable pinky pink camera. :)

Kogila.. Insect hater, SHE SCREAMS SO LOUD WHEN SHE SEES INSECTS. :P she makes me laugh and I like her alot :) heh.

Gebby.. We share the same phone! Although mine is prettier thanks to the purple and the bling, bwahahahaha! ;D hehe.

Sean.. My pretty Chinese girl friend from Sarawak. :)

Please oh please, I hope I havent missed anyone. :)

Before I came here, I was from a Catholic school. Mostly Chinese-population. So coming here was a TOTAL culture shock. Like literally. Do you know, the there are only TWO Chinese girls in my class. Me and Sean. (Even then I'm not pure Chinese)

So I'm really glad I get along with these insane classmates of mine. :)

Ohhh. Ohhh. Oh. And about "him". I haven't talked to him in days.. Just a quick hi and/or bye when I see him. Enough to make me happy though :D

GAHHHH. Hopeless romantic. :S

xoxo karen

Dream

You got my head in the clouds..

You got me thinking out loud...

The more you dream about me the more that I believe..

And nothing's ever out of reach.

So dream dream dream. :)

Oh my goshhhhh.

:)

Haha. I'm not often like this. I'm usually calm. And relaxed.

But..

Okay. So. There's this guy.

:D

Enough stupid meaningless retarded half-sentences. :P Haha.

I'm not gonna do anything about it though... I am way too shy.... <^.^> HAHA!

xoxo karen

D:

Okay, so things have been freaky for the past 2 months.

The whole pressing thing?..

I seem to get it more.. and its freaking me out.. All my close-ish friends know about it.. and the other thing.. so I won't bother putting it here, cos actually I don't really wanna think about it.

My dad told me the more I think about it the worse it gets.

I agree.

So I've taken to praying and praying and praying that it'll all stop... And seriously last night after praying my rosary and reading the Bible (Ephesians Chapter 6 had EXACTLY what I was looking for), I had the most peaceful sleep I've ever had since coming to KTT.

I mean it. The power of prayer. :)

I've even began to pray the 3pm prayer everyday even when I'm in class. (using my baby rosary :D)

I refuse to be afraid. I refuse to let this scare me. (Although it does, kinda). I believe God is trying to teach me something by letting me experience all these.. I trust in Him and I'm going to keep praying. Maybe this is His way of leading me closer to Him.

Pray that tonight will be another peaceful night's sleep. :)

xoxo karen

Felicia's Elephant

This post is especially for my favourite and only roommate, Felicia. :D

Here you go. I hope you check my blog :) haha.

This elephant is Felicia's best friend. (apart from our other housemate ;) HAHA.)

So I decided to torture it when she was at class.. I hanged it on the fan. :D

But the best is yet to come.....

TA-DA!!!!! :)

In case you can't see clearly, let me just tell you about it.. This is Felicia sleeping, clutching her elephant VERY VERY tightly. ( in case I steal it, yeah, Felicia? :) hehe. )

Don't get mad and torture me!! :(

I've had my fun. :D

xoxo karen

Dance

Its so early in the morning! :D haha. And I can't sleep, in fact I'm wide wide wide awake.

Had our dance performance in church a couple of hours ago. Sarah was like, why didnt you smile?? You look so sad.. And I admit, I didn't smile, cos I was like so paranoid about making a mistake. :P hahaha.

But it went well! Surprisingly. :D haha. I am seriously so lousy at traditional dance. :P I'm more Chinese than I am Kadazan, so... yeah. :P haha. Anyway.. photos.. Easier than thinking of what to type here :)

Don't we look awesome?? :D hehe. The lighting kinda sucks, but also makes the photo look interesting-ish. :D haha. We look like so pale. :P Maegyver, Michelle, Ricky, me, Eric, Via.

Karen, Via, Michelle. :)

All KTT-ians in church. :)

The mastermind behind it all.. Our choreographer Willy. :)

Karen, Shana and Michelle.

Eric and me. :) Eric tried to smile. :D He usually looks so so serious. Kan, Eric? :) haha.

Girly group photo :D haha. With our candles. It was like Christmas! :D (God I miss Christmas :( NO Christmas for me this year.. haha.)

I had lots of fun tonight. More blogging and photos tomorrow. :) haha.

xoxo karen